the year that was, and the year that is

I don’t know where to start but 2009 was a blast. It might be because things were turning 5 years. After 5 years in marriage and parenting and surviving, somehow, I/we kind of finally find our fit in each others’ lives.

For 2009, I am thankful:
* to see mark more of a ‘parent’ now. He even can write about it here. I guess he was true to his words when he told me before that he will only participate in taking care of the kids when they turn 4-5 years old.
* that migi and meg are now 4 and 5 years old respectively. it does not make ‘parenting’ really that easier because they now know how to talk back/reason out. but it is more better because i/we can now have more free hands. they can be on their own now without having us to always tail on them.
* that I became more of a less parent now. Mark and I kind of exchange places — he more of into ‘parenting’ while I engage myself with ‘finding the meaning of life,’ which is evident with my less yakking about parenting. I’m not sure if it is something to be thankful about. But I am thankful in a way because I learn to let go of my confusions and issues with parenting. Of course, there are still a lot of questions but then they no longer bother me. I realized, as a mother, I can only be me, and so are my kids. I don’t know how to explain it but ‘mao na na sya.’ =) and so the saga of ‘unparenting’ will begin. =) 

I can say 2009 was a year for me, myself, and I. After 5 years into marriage and parenting, I kind of find myself thinking about myself. It is kind of selfish but then I got to the point that it made me think what am I trying to achieve as a mother. How can I be an effective mother when I do not even know what I want in life? Anyhoo, no more boring details about myself.

For 2010, my motto is to get down and dirty — it’s the best way to learn and enjoy life. =) Make more fun of myself.

I’m also committing myself to ‘365 doodles’ — I will try to write down my ‘important’ thoughts every day for the whole 2010. =) I got the idea from an article I read about artists committing theirselves to design/draw each day for a year (sorry, can no longer find the source). So this can be day 1. =)

exciting 2010 for all of us!